It came like a tickle.
The idea was fluttering around like a butterfly.
To and fro. I watched it as it danced around in my mind. I paid no attention to it that much as months passed by.
Yet one day, with a spark of a real deep conversation, with such elegance and grace it landed in my heart.
The desire for home landed on my heart.
What is this I thought to myself. Is this my desire or God’s desire?
I remembered Psalms 37:4 instantly. I remember reading it consistently for a month straight months ago.
I looked at my husband and apparently, he had the same thought.
We wanted to make sure to surrender this desire to God fully.
We agreed to fast and pray separately. The subject was not talked about.
I remember in the early days of the fast, dropping to my knees, asking God about this desire. I wanted Him to be clear. I wanted to hear what He had to say. On and on I went. I cried aloud to Him.
July 27 prayer journal entry:
I’m getting better from a cold I caught on Monday the 24th…
I don’t want to let my emotions get the best of me. I’m a little lost. We don’t know what to do. With your permission, please send us to Washington…
We have had good, trying, and beaten-down times, but I’m ready to go, please.
“Hear, O Lord, and be merciful to me! O Lord, be my helper!” Psalm 30:10
Be merciful to me, O Lord, a sinner.
Amen
He spoke. He spoke His guidance and truth.
The song that popped up after our time together:
Fear is Not my Future
Here’s my heart
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I messaged our family friends and they said:
“ suggestion: when you think from the best of your abilities you discern God’s will, then hold your decision before Him and tell no one for a few days. Stay humble and ask the Holy Spirit to confirm or change your plans. We love you!” — S&K W.
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When our fast ended, we got the Lord’s permission to move.
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We consulted our church’s pastors and leaders.
We told them everything. From the beginning up until that day. How it began and how we brought it all to God.
One of the pastors brought up two key scriptures:
2 Peter 1:3 and Psalm 37:4
We talked about accountability and:
-“You two have gotten training, healing, and tools here in Florida. Now going back to be missionaries in Washington..”
⁃ step of faith
⁃ lean and trust in God
⁃ going back as transformed people.. changed people.
⁃ To not revert to our old ways
⁃ Setting S.M.A.R.T goals to keep walking in this transformation process and to keep it going
We ended with prayer.
So much has happened since that time we sat down and talked.
I want to share it all in detail but I’m afraid this blog will look more like a book’s chapter. Or perhaps a short story?
But anyway, four Saturdays ago, in prayer with our friends, we received the Lord’s blessing as well! It came unexpectedly but how I wanted His blessing, how I wrestled with myself to ask God.
That my friends is how:
We came, we saw, we left.